I have gotten myself into a very bad habit: Falling. I either fall or run into something at least once a week. This week is no exception. I fell down the steps. Again. Although I can be thankful because I didn’t fall on my knee and I didn’t fall head first(that has been done and I think is partially responsible for my fear of stairs).
After I fell I told Mom repeatedly that I was sick of falling. We both agreed that I should probably start stretching my hamstrings because they are really tight and the reason why I don’t walk like a normal person and usually end up tripping. These exercises are not hard or that time consuming but I still don’t like to do them. I never have. But they help. I feel better when I do them. I can actually touch my toes after about three weeks if I do them consistently. So tomorrow I will add hamstring stretches to my exercise routine.
Let me explain what I learned by my statement “I’m sick of falling.” I learned a little bit more about grace. Dictionary.com defines grace as,” A manifestation of favor, especially by a superior” I really think the acronym for grace explains it better:
Because Jesus died on the cross you and I have access to God’s unending grace! The Bible says that we have all sinned and fall short of the glory of God (see Romans 3:23). I don’t know about you but I sin and fall short of God’s glory every single day. But I have grace. Jesus forgives me of ALL my sins. The Bible also says that you can’t do anything to make God stop loving you. He always will (See Romans 8:38-39).
One of the best things about God is that He still loves us whether or not we trip and catch ourselves or we fall down really hard. Again. He’s still there holding out His loving arms waiting to embrace us and heal our wounds and scars.
Until next time,
**This post was originally written on 5/9/16 and edited on 9/14/16.**
**The acronym for the word Grace is not mine, the source is unknown.**
Ohmygoodness! I can’t believe that it’s already May!! In 14 days I will have been graduated from high school for 1 year—an entire 365 days!! I find that bit of knowledge equally joyful and horrific. In some ways I feel that I have grown SO much and experienced so many new and wonderful things. Then in another way I feel that I am nowhere close to where I want to be—that I still have way to much left to learn.
But then I remember this: That’s what life is all about. Learning and growing. Constantly trying to do better. To be more like Jesus. To reflect Him in every moment of every day. I have made so many changes in the last year some good, some bad. Some that I have managed to stick with, others that I’m lucky if I can stick to the change for a day.
I’m currently trying to define exactly what it is that I want to do, how much I’m willing to pay, and what sacrifices I’m willing to make. Where exactly I want my dream to go, how far I want to go with it and most importantly where God wants all of this to go; where He wants me to go.
I’m learning about where it is that I am weak and how to remember that He is stronger in my weakness. I’m learning (very slowly) that it’s okay to be different. That God calls us to be different, to stand out from the crowd. He wants us to know that following Him will lead us to live radically different lives than those we know who don’t follow Him. And that that’s okay.
I’m learning that I have to follow Him even when I’m completely scared out of my wits. Even when I have way more questions than answers. Yes, even when I want to scream that all of this is crazy and I’m the biggest nut in the bag to even think that I can attempt this. I have to remember that God had all of this planned since before the earth was even created. I have to remember that God’s got this. That because He holds the world in His hands He is more than able to hold my heart and brain and all the problems that come along with being a human in this extremely messy world AND the best part is that He doesn’t just hold me and tell me that it’s going to be okay He shows me in every page of His word and guides me by the hand through this crazy wonderful thing called life. I have to remember that.
I have to remember to trust Him and lean on Him in everything.
Until next time,
** This post was originally written on 5/2/16 and edited on 9/14/16.**
**This post was originally written 4/14/16 and edited on 9/14/16. Since I needed some practice writing for other people to read I decided (with the help of my Mom) to start journaling as if I was writing for my blog. This “journal” was cleverly titled a blournal—a combination of the words blog and journal.**
In April of this year I was presented with an opportunity to follow where I believed God was leading me; to start this blog and eventually sell some of my pictures online. I still struggle with making the best use of time, but each day I try to manage it better. I am constantly reminded that God’s grace has no end and His love for us endures forever.
I graduated high school in May of 2015 then attended a community college that fall. Due to some very strong differing opinions and discovering what my true goals were for my future I decided that it would be better to not go back. I was originally going to look for a job after convention season but I was presented with the opportunity to babysit and then child sit for a wedding in June, so I was going to start looking for a job on Tuesday. But as of Monday I was presented with an amazing opportunity that most people my age never get to experience.
I’m able to take a year and really dive into my dream and take HUGE steps to actually make it become a reality. God answered some really big prayers recently and I’m very thankful. I was praying that I would have direction on where to go for a job and where to apply. On Sunday after lunch with a friend; one of the places that I kept trying to avoid working at actually seemed like a really good idea. I felt a sort of peace with the idea of working outside the home.
Then Monday I was presented with the idea to not work an official job (We do some side jobs for neighbors that pay some) and really dive into my dream of turning this blournal into reality and opening a small online store I was hesitant. The last time we attempted something of this nature I totally bombed it! I didn’t put effort into it and was basically of the belief that my parents were ruining my social life that really didn’t exist at the time.
But after some prayer and thought I realized that I would be really stupid to not jump at this opportunity. I don’t know of many 19 year olds that don’t have to get a job and that can work solely on making their dreams a reality. So, I took it.
My goal now is to redeem this year that God has given me. To make the most of it. Continually learning and growing as a Daughter of God , as a photographer and writer. I’m hoping and praying that I’ll be able to use the time that God has given me with wisdom “…redeeming the time because the days are evil.”
Until next time,